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{Friday, October 21, 2005 @ 11:37 PM}
i'm so freaking bored! dont have anybody to go out with or anything. cant stay at home the whole day can i? i'm too fidgety. i need to get out of the house! one day isnt enough to last me the whole week. and i dont wanna go out with the girls in my school. no offence. i just get bored. the things we look at are totally different. you wont be seeing me go into the all pink shop which you go to. i'm so sorry. i jus dont fit in.
wednesday was fun. was damn depressing at first. had nobody to talk to or to have fun with. elena wasn't here, wen shuen had liling. huiling wasnt here. totally nobody to talk to. i dont like people talking with fake accents. there's a phrase saying "one shouldnt, when one cannot" (by me ) and she just shouldnt! its damn crappy! but anw, was kinda close to tears when i had no one to talk to. freaking people were making a fool outta themselves infront of everybody. somehow, although everyone was laughing, didnt think it was funny at all. wanted very much to tell him so!
that i'm sorry! i wish we can continue to be good friends. but if this is what you want, i'll not force you. there's nothing to do anyway. enough of the confession. had fun only when the people were supposed to teach us how to um.. sulpture a balloon? haha.was interested. but couldnt.. i had the attention i've always wanted. although the person i want noticing me wasnt there. not important! chit chat. crapped! then.. more and more people came.. hmmm. i didnt have a choice. they did. i had to sit at the back.. they didnt.. so why is it turning out that way? kinda weird isnt it? although you probably wouldnt know what i'm talking about. hmmm.. played games. (: had fun. something i've been wanting. but unable to. just so irritated with life. hurr..
i live to eat!
