and the difference between: new and old, slippers and sneakers, clean and dirty, colourful and black/white, exposed and coverups, havaianas and adidas, laces and lace-less.

whoo! that was fun!

it's fun to have someone do graffiti on you instead of drawing on yourself. that's just plain weird.

anw. it's a disappointing day. the syf results are out. and after all the hard work we've put through. it comes down to this. thanks alot. so what if its great effort? it still comes down to this. this pathetic state. humph. thanks alot. i was seriously hoping to get better than just that. but ahh wells. judges thought otherwise. and all that "we've only had 3-4 months" thing is bloody considered an excuse. i'm disappointed. i'm disappointed that i didnt make a mark for my cca. i'm disappointed that when i've finally found a niche, i'm not good enough for it. i'm disappointed that it's my last year and things are turning out this way. i'm disappointed i didnt get the support i should be given when i was all into the cca. i'm disappointed i disappointed everyone who was expecting something else. i'm disappointed that everyone just consoles. i'm disappointed it's only fun that i felt and not the joy of recieving something better. i'm disappointed that i actually felt a connection. i'm disappointed that connections like this will get me nowhere. i'm disappointed that i can just move on in life like nothing has ever happened. i'm disappointed that not many people felt as disappointed as i did. i'm disappointed that i'm disappointed not many other people felt as disappointed as i did.

why the hell did something like this happen? what is the bloody reason? tell me. "send me a sign"