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{Wednesday, August 18, 2010 @ 4:32 AM}
bro: "wah, bernice really like man"
i am insulted. is it my fault the father figure in the family was not present until recently? is it my fault that my sis is a chick, and my brother's too young to man up? is it my fault to look at the male species and think "wtf man?" being let down time and time again.
can you blame me for wanting to do things on my own now? when i cant rely on anyone to do so. it comes to a point when all i feel is, i need to be able to lift things, to be able to do the things i know my mom, sis and brother wont be able to. to be strong, to not let people take advantage/bully us. and all only recently. when it hit me that they need protecting, and they didnt have anyone there for them.
brute force always work. i'm certain. being that pathetic skinny person just aint up my alley. i wont allow myself to get injured easily, to not be able to protect myself. i need that security at least. so i know i'm the strong one, standing tall.
so what if i portray the masculine side of me more than the feminine one? what matters is that i know i can throw a good punch.
Labels: i like roses though.
