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{Sunday, December 05, 2010 @ 11:25 PM}
sigh. another year is ending. and it's not gna make any difference again.
met up with sec school friends and found out this chick's an SIA stewardess. i want to be one too. i'll probably have to starve myself to be able to fit into the kebaya and all. but why not? travel the world, meet GORGEOUS looking people. maybe i'll meet my future husband in the process too! who am i kidding. no boyfriend want to talk about husband. siao.
sometimes in the middle of the night. i get these urges to do stuff. and then regret them. no harm done. just URGH. and then i wont remember what happened the next morning. which freaks me out. and it makes me look childish and "troubled" but it's really not the case. i know this is ambiguous and it's meant to be. i hate these dreams i'm having. i hate my r/s with school and i dont even know why i bother sometimes. but i cant just drop it you know? i promised myself i would get involved. but it doesnt work that way. it pisses me off. i dislike this feeling. i dislike everything that's going on now.
i'm in one of those moods again. i need to be alone. to think but not let my head get the better of me. because that happens often. i wna perfect body, i wna perfect soul. but i'm voldermort. my soul feels like it's been torn into pieces for the hurt i've caused others. by others i mean people close to me. not like random passersby. HAHA. i'm not really voldermort. although i do like snakes, a lot. they're magnificent creatures they are. actually i like reptiles on a whole la. iguanas, chameleons, not into crocs or the animal. attachment's going alright i guess.
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