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{Wednesday, March 02, 2011 @ 11:33 PM}
fight or flight.
i'll take flight. havent been in a situation where i'd rather stand and fight. cept for that one time when i got so irritated i screamed at a kid. all the situations i've been in so far? i took flight. dont stand up for myself and then suffer the wrath of "L'esprit de l'escalier". but what do you expect me to do? stand firm and whack the living day lights out of someone? scream and yell what i'm thinking? no, i dont do that.
and i dont like talking about what's bothering me. because bringing things up will probably make it worse. but it's only when you talk about it that you feel a little better in life. and i dont usually use LOL, but i find the new meaning to LOL to be patronising laughter. you know? when you need to sy smth for the sake of saying smth, and you'll just laugh, even when it's not funny. yeap. lol. stop wasting my time.
anw. i'm so wrapped up in my own life that sometimes, i fail to take a step back and notice others around me. i'm living with so many regrets, i cant even begin to start counting. it bugs me that i cant do anything. it bugs me that i'm not a girly girl and that having such a hard and cynical character would not get me far in life. so much unhappiness and hatred. ahh bottled up feelings. how we shall never speak of thee ever.
life. so normal, yet cruel at the same time. time is so precious i feel. suddenly everything is slowing down and once again, life is bleak. and damn you dreams i srsly hate this feeling. the issues. life.
Labels: sigh.
