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{Wednesday, September 11, 2013 @ 5:29 PM}
i feel like i'm sinking. all over again.
so tired of this life. so annoyed at what's happened and what's to come. going to school for the sake of going to school, and not for cognitive needs.
what happened to passion and motivation?
life has such a smart way of pulling you back to reality when you're on cloud 9. fucks with you so harshly, just because. please give me a reason. i just want to understand. is that too much to ask? i need to know. i can keep questioning myself because who else do i go to? i'm so lost and all i want to do is believe that there is something out there that there must be a reason for things to happen. tell me please.
i want to be carefree, to laugh heartily, to feel on top of the world. simply because i can and had the means to. i cant now. my thoughts dont coincide, my emotions are all over the place. i smile, then feel so much anger i want to kill someone, but those are okay. it's the overwhelming sadness, that i cant get out of. coming to me like waves, and i cant explain why.
i'm tired. i feel my body slowly giving up.
maturity weighs me down.
