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{Friday, February 14, 2014 @ 11:19 PM}
Another year, another valentine's day. Another disappointment yet again. Do I really hope to fix this? Do I really want to fix this? When the pieces are so broken, when our flaws are magnified. When there is no point in fixing anw, because we are fighting a losing battle.
I just hope to have been able to heal, psychologically and physically before this happened. But I guess we'll have to wait and see.
These thoughts are running wild now. To a point I feel sociopathic. I want to hurt someone. I want to hurt them as much as they have hurt me.
Most of all, I want to hurt myself. For allowing said people to hurt me. For not protecting myself above all. For not taking care of myself. Mentally. For lettin myself trust so deeply and forsake all others.
I'm so tired. So fucking tired.
