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{Friday, January 29, 2016 @ 10:10 AM}
my patience is wearing thin.
i'm trying to be as self aware as i can right now, in order to build my emotional intelligence. it is such a challenge having to keep cool constantly. i used to lash out all the time and just send a fury of insults defending my stance and putting other people down. in the spur of the moment it's what i really want to say, to make the other party think what they have done instead of just blaming me. but how long will that fleeting glee last before the wave of regret and guilt overwhelms me?
and it annoys me to no end when people claim my emotions are based on my hormonal fluctuations. to base my response on anything but why i feel so passionate about something and am trying to correct you, or that i am simply being myself, is just invalidating my response. and it's offensive. and makes me so irate, i want to lash out more.
i think i might be losing it.
